Holding (2009)

Existence on hold
Waiting for a break in the inaction
Stymied by the endless possibilities
Unable to see certainty
Merely wishing to make life happen
Fearful of what may occur
Fearful of what may not

That devilish empty hope
That some external force
Will shape me
Into what I feel
I cannot become
Of my own volition
Procrastination
Reigns and lords heavy over me
Rains and pours the wait interminably
From an angry black cloud
With a lining of fool’s gold

And so I wait
Hesitate
Holding

But holding you
Is compensation enough
For my impatience

And holding you
Is reason enough to wait out the malaise

Holding you
Is motivation
To make my life happen
So I can get back to what is important:
Holding you